A lot of thinking in bed.
Concert concert concert for one. It’s sooner then I thought. July 3, 2010 save that date guys! :) Youtube/Blogtv artists coming down at Pipeline. Second is a job. I’m dreading those days I really need money in my wallet, it fucking sucks. I really convinced myself not working would be great cause I had a house with my EX boyfriend, that was a mistake and to top it off he’s a douche. I seriously need to find this legit job pronto. I’m making this a goal and has to be done in MAY, no later Kayla. Third is school. I have one more test to take and it’s my worst subject…MATH. I’m honestly nervous! I just want to pass and get pass this highschool scene, I catch myself feeling 16 still. Now college is coming around the corner and I don’t know if I’m ready or not? I can’t wait but then again I can. I think the only exciting part is finally sticking with something, financial aid, and making myself, my grandparents, and parents proud.
I seriously need to stop being so damn lazy, where the fuck do I start?! It’s been way to long..I’m so ready to get started and I know I can do it. But it’s been a struggle taking those steps. My selfesteem has gone way down this past year and I’m the only one who can build it back up. My dearest Lord Jesus help me, save me, guide me back to reality. Oh and sorry for the profanity, forgive me Father.
It’s amazing how much venting on tumblr makes you see things clearer, well atleast for me. First step is admitting. CHECK! Ugh..5:01am What am I doing?! I have the load of things to do today. Hotels, Studying, Job apps, School reg. YES Kayla staying up this late to see the sunrise is just great. I should do this evey night but earlier -_-“
Thank you tumblr.
BTW Hoppy 420 potheads :P
Officially can kiss my ass! This app sucks. I need my debit card back so I can buy the better one, boo!
Parting my bangs diff. Sooo not working out it curves in not out, stupid bangs. I should be sleeping like I told my Stevie but instead he’s on mute while I fix my face. He won’t know unless he notices it in the morning >_
without a job, school, friends, boyfriend, family etc. Seriously feel so left behind. I want to be in front or some where close. I need to step it up this is not acceptable.
Cause lately I haven’t had it. Idk what’s going on, but baby you’re losing me </3
Stop teasing me and Steven on Facebook ): Don’t loose the spark babygirl! Find something that’ll light it back up! (:
1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly. Are you remembering this?
6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.
11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can’t get to her friends. it makes her feel loved. Are you thinking of someone?
16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she’s beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her. One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.
21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car, it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she’s your everything.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her, if she denies something being wrong, it means; she doesn’t want to talk about it so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of other girls.
26. DON’T lie to her.
27. DON’T cheat on her.
28. Take her everywhere and anywhere she wants.
29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work or school, and how much you miss her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn’t need you, just be there so she’ll know that she can always count on you.
31. Hold her close when she’s cold so she can hold you too.
32. When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the cheek.
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her.
35. Dont ever tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you’re mad. If shes upset, comfort her.
36. When people diss her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her hand.
40. When you hug her hold her in your arms as long as possible.
41. Call or text her every night to wish her sweet dreams.
42. comfort her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for long walks at night.
44. always remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her.
46. Rub her back.
47. Give her your coat if she’s cold.
48. Write letters on her back with your finger.
49. Let her sit on your lap.
50. Kiss her neck.
51. hold her hands in public.
52. Even if she looks bad one day tell her she’s beautiful.
53. Give her goosebumps and kiss them away.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her.
55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music.
59. Give her butterflies.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her and treat her like your everything
I’m under so much stress right now, and sometimes i just want to give up. But I know I can’t. You give me strength and the people you have blessed me with give hope and unconditional love. I know under your guidance everything will be okay. I Love You.
I needed this..