Where did you go?
I’m in this stage in life that’s confusing me and making me feel to old? I’m in the middle of growing up and living up the last year of being a teen. I know I’m not the only one going through this.
My dad always told me I’m to young to settle down, I agreed most of the time well actually everytime he talked to me about it. Now I’m in a serious relationship but why am I so confused? Somtimes I feel so sure and then sometimes I feel not myself. I got a WHOLE life ahead of me with less to worry about but I find myself stuck in a bubble. Should I stay should I go? I really can’t decide because Steven does bend over backwards to keep us going. It’s just frustrating when he doesn’t listen, like I argue with him for no reason. When there is A LOT of reasons why I get upset. Like affection? Is it really that hard to show or accepting me and accepting the decisions I make. I’m me? Don’t you get it. I seriously can even say to myself I’m the sweetest person you will ever meet, but why do you bring out so much anger in me..It’s even harder now that I’ve got myself thinking about what if’s or maybe’s. You always think when we argue we’ll end up laughing about it or if you walk away things will get better. No! It won’t. If you keep thinking that way maybe one day I’ll walk in the opposite direction. When I’m at the edge why would you push me? why can’t you pull me back or catch me. Things are just drifting and I don’t know what to say anymore. I’m happy but I’m not happy with my life.
So whatever happen to me? Why did I change so much. I wish I kept to myself and just didn’t care about relationships.
